Black holes and stars: love, loss, and transformation

Anger, sadness, denial…and repeat.

oh I'm so angry at you

and everything you stand for

Give up your adventure, your wild fun

your grand gesture

Your billows of inconsistency,

The trajectory of my orbit and the sanity of my rhythm,

love to everyone

your constant quest to please

for fun

you play the main character

you spill yourself all over

make a mess

while I'm left here

wash the dishes

clean up the mess

once again and again

alone

I still miss you

I can't even get angry at you properly

because i love you

But you left me

Much of my core light has been removed;

semi-hollow

What will satisfy me now?

When the light is half gone?

why did you leave me?

Was I not enough?

Where did the flame of light that you kindly shared with me go?

Where is your dance, laughter, and insight?

Where will your bright blue light melt?

Oceanization, flames

drunk on love for me

Bright eyes?

where are you?

Why did you leave me?

Was I not enough?

In search of the lost flame

Where did the flame of light that you kindly shared with me go?

Where is your dance, laughter, and insight?

Where will your bright blue light melt?

Oceanization, flames

drunk on love for me

Bright eyes?

where are you?

Why did you leave me?

Was I not enough?

And the sun will cry with bright fiery tears

As if there was a part

stripped from her core

It was as if she herself had been cut in half.

Leaving memories of the two of us

But among them

and all alone

She continued to search for the flame of her beloved.

But there was only darkness

Where once there was a bright blue star.

It's very lonely here and very cold

Very little love from others

When dancing in the binary system of two giant stars.

After all, who would dare to step in between them when they were dancing?

spinning, breathing fire

Burning across the sky.

But what if someone is there?

Or maybe something

Who flew into their close-knit system from far away?

what if it was something else

A life-ending sequence was triggered in my companion's lower abdomen –

A slightly bigger star?

But when was that?

Or was it?

Was it?

Did something happen?

someone?

Have you forgotten?

I forgot.

I don't remember anything

I have nothing.

was he there?

What was that?

what is happening?

Is it all about me?

Or is there nothing?

And what is this burn,

I feel it very deeply

Right inside the core

once burned,

A half-hollowed heart?

who am i?

am i a star?

Or is it a frozen block of ice?

Why did I freeze?

How did it happen?

Who is to blame?

Is it you? Or me?

Is that even important?

you're gone and I'm here

Much of my light was taken away.

so small, so dense, so frozen

It's very cold, hard, and dense, and it hurts when you touch it.

What is it?

who am i?

Why do I still feel so strong?

where are you?

Are you the one who froze?

where are you?

are you here?

Are you still a star?

who are you?

Where can I find it?

Please tell me now!

tell me!

Is it you or us or just me?

where are you?

Why do I feel you so strongly inside me?

It's you, but it doesn't look like you.

Still you?

Or is it me?

Brother and my beloved, where are you?

what did you do?

Who have you become?

Why is it so tough now when it was light?

Very dense, attractive and evocative

Why do you feel like you're pulling my guts out,

Is everything twisting me from the inside out?

what happened?

who are you now?

who am i?

what happened?

What have we become?

Why do I feel such a pull toward you?

But when you get closer, you can't see anything.

Only darkness.

You're gone.

But even if you feel like something is going on, is there really nothing?

Is there really nothing?

Am I the only one?

Isn't it us?

What is this?

what is happening?

why am i here?

Why am I here alone when we were here?

All I remember is your bright blue eyes turning white before the supernova.

Oh love

where are you?

Why are you hiding from my sight?

presence in absence

At first there was a deep wave of confusion

Rather than the cold, cutting silence

However, insight

She was looking for his light everywhere.

Searching for his remains inside and outside

Her rays shot out far and wide

But that's the nature of black holes

To absorb light.

So she had to learn how to see through the darkness.

And follow that feeling even more

than her eyesight

A boring job for a bright blue giant

whose light unites all that it sees

While she was desperately searching for

panic

he was always there

hidden in the shadows

Still, much closer than before

Pulling her light waves tightly,

just deep down

to the core of oneself

If the center of gravity was between the two

Now the center of gravity has moved inside him.

deep inside his core

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